A bit too old???


I've been a little Korean drama crazy lately. It started one Saturday, stuck at home cos i've been doing too much shopping and have to stay at home. Browsing through mysoju.com for some latest drama to watch. Come across this title " Love&Marriage", well, a new show 2008, showing in Korea since OCT. Let's try this one. Click on that...and the story begins...


on Tuesday, i sent an email to my sister and say, check this out, he is HOT!!!


Here he is:

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I know what are you thinking now..."aren't she's a bit too old for that" "crazy about movie stars and all that"

I know..i feel a bit "pai se" too... everynight after dinner, i will be in the computer room glued on the screen till bed time.


But look at him!!! How hot is he! my sister said i'm siao!




i agreed....

I fell FAT!



Thanks to the amazing Facebook! I have managed to re-connect with a few of my long lost childhood, primary school friends! Friends that i knew 15 years ago!

Today, I found one of my long lost childhood best friend! She looks amazing!

I have to admit, i've always been a chubby kids since baby....and i have comfortable with who i am and how i look like now. It is not helping when you see people around you can change their shape/weight just like that! over the years, i have tried numerous of diet methods....nothing work!

It got me thinking...am i just confortable with myself because that's a good excuse for me not to loose weight? am I really comfortable with myself? whenever I see other friends that change their body shape and look good...i feel like a failure! and ask myself...why can't i do it...

and it's also not fair...there are people that just skip dinner for 2 weeks and they are back to their ideal shape....for me? i think i need much more work than that...

Well, it really come down to oneself's self motivation, determination. Both of my weakest element...hhmm...

I feel shit!

Being "China" lady...

Went to local super market this morning with Trent to get some grocery like milk, bread and washing powder.

I can't help it and get side track by all the discount that they are running in store as well as snacks!

Then i spotted this in the fridge section

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The new Skinny Cow ice-cream that is in the market...."I gota try" i think...(such a consumer)

I was standing in front of the fridge for like 5 mins...can't make up my mind what flavor of sundae i should pick, then Trent said just pick anything....

Well, i want to pick something that Trent will eat too...so i ask, what about the choc-cherry sundae..."hhmm...it's abit weird" he said...

OK, so let's go with classic vanila choc then? OK, deal!

I reach in the fridge to grab the pack, instead of taking the first pack on display, i pick the 3 pack in the row.

(don't ask me why, but that's how i shop!)

But i have theory! having worked in hospitality industry, i know whenever you do display, always push things that are old, been in the fridge for a while, or going to expired soon to the front. Sooooo...i always pick things that is at the back of the row, cause they should be fresh!

So, we are all happy...paid all the grocey and go home.

When I unpack the grocery when i got home, this is what i got

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The Chery Choc sundae!!!! What the!!!!!

Trent was laughing at me, said i was being "China" lady. I cannot believe it!!!! This has nothing to do with being a "China" lady or not...

Is the idoit that did the stocking.....they did not even put the right product on the right row!!!!!

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So, we are stuck with the Cherry choc sundae now...

What's my next step?



It's heart breaking. Yes, I am about to change job again!
I know, Again??? Jonathan laught @ me, saying i am a typical Generation Y. No way, i am not!

All i ever wanted is to be good at my job. Yes, i have chosen this path 1 year ago, and yes, i am about to change again as i think there is no future for me here.

When i receive "The news" my heart was thinking, so what's my next step?

browsing at seek.com has been my part time job for the last month! I looked at every single post carefully, fear that i it will happen to me again 1 year later. I want to settle down and i want to work for a company that is long lasting. That i can be so good that know my product inside out! I know in terms of experience i am not there yet, but i'm not afraid of hardwork. I just need a supportive envirorment.

Too many bitching at work, too many small groups at work that make me feel uncomfortable. Everyday i feel like i am hiding in my office. I feel alive when i am outside office, when i am in overseas working.

I mean, i could have stay for another 6 months, so that my resume look better, been there for 18 months, but i just can't handle it any longer. Another 6 months is too much of torture for me.

Spoken to my friend, and she was totally supportive. I have not deliver the news to the others girl, cos i feel like a failure! I don't want then laughing at me "seee, that's what happen, you left us 1 year ago"

I know i can be better, i know i can grow stronger, but i need the right envirorment. Finger cross the new offer i've got will make my dream comes true.

I am happy with what i've got, even though i was told i can do a little better. I mean...it is better than now.

Ohhhhh God! a long sigh as i type.

God bless me!

19th MAY 2008

Happy Anniversary!!!!


Yesterday was our 1 year anniversary. Can you imagine that? it's been a year....We are married for a year...Woohoo..

It just felt so fast...so emotional...

We went to Nobu Melbourne for a Looooomantic dinner....


More photos to come!

I am Back!

*this is taken in the flight coming back to melbourne...it was a empty flight, i was resting my legs on a 3 seater while watching inflight entertainment!*

It’s been a while since my last blog. I’ve been away, 2 weeks away from home, Trent, to my business trip – Bangkok, Hong Kong and China. OMG…by the end of the trip, I was brain dead.

The sound of business trip sounds very fun…don’t get me wrong, I love it! Get away from office, away from all boring paper work! But it is very tiring because the company will expect you to work long hour, or maybe just my company :P

Well, they pay for your flight, accommodation, of course you have to prove that you are worth that. So, we work from 8am to 9pm, almost every night. By the end of the day, I go back to my hotel, watch a little bit of MTV channel and sleep..till my alarm went off, it’s breakfast time and back to war zone.

I like going away for business trip cos I can feel the sense of achievement. Especially when I’m in the land of Hong Kong and China. That’s the moment I stand with my head held high , and would like to scream on top of my lung “ I am so bloody proud to be MALAYSIAN!” it almost feel like I can survive anywhere in the world…Err..maybe not Europe….or India….

I am so proud of being Malaysian because whenever I go, I surprise Chinese in China, Hong Kong, and even people in Thailand! The language that I can speak and understand. Not that I master all the local dialect in China, as they have so many of them, but at least I know the main everyday used language there- Mandarin or Cantonese if you are in Canton Province!

I got into a cab in Hong Kong, telling the driver where we want to go, and he ask me which way is faster…I look blank and have to tell him I am not local. Well…he don’t believe me and give me a “cheeeehhhhhhh”

When I was in China, speaking fluent Mandarin to the manufacturer and raise their suspect that I am local spy. OMG…as if!

They said I sounds like someone from Beijing or Shanghai…huh, at least I sounds like I am from the better part of China! Haha!

I even can pick up some local dialect like Hakka or TeowChew that the supplier used among themselves cos my mum and dad’s family speak those dialect! Too cool!

The conclusion is—I am proud to be Malaysian and I am glad that mum and dad send me to Chinese school!

The strange thing is when I was in Thailand, I have this strange feeling, like I have lost my identity. It feel so close to home..( I am from Penang, maybe can swim home :P), food, weather is sooo familiar to me, but I can’t understand a thing in Thailand. I feel like a total stranger there. Too weird! People in Thailand even speak Thai to me…wait a min…do I look like Thai? I asked my supplier; they said I look like high class, fair skin Thai.

* proud *

Now i'm back to work...sh*t lots of things to do and I already looking forward to my next trip!

Life is not fair!



Last night Trent reminded me how much of a spoil child we can be sometimes. Blaming the world and b*tching about what you don't have or what you are not happy about, forgetting how lucky we actually are!

As usual, i was b*tching about work to him last night, saying i'm not sure if i can handle the stupidity @ work, this person sucks, that person stupid, who is kissing who ass to get promoted...bla bla bla...then i end the sentence with "life is not fair"!

Trent silence for a while and said : "Life is not fair? like what? i can think of a example - *Norman!"
*name has been changed

my heart sank!

Norman is 2 years old, he is cute, active and the most adorable child! He collapsed on Friday and now he is in intensive care. His mum, our friend been so worry about him and she told me" I missed him so much, the moment i leave hospital i want to go back to see him again!"

Life is NOT fair! i shouted this in my heart as i type this entry! if i b*tch about being fat, hating my job, not earning enough money..well, he hasn't got a chance to b*tch about that! cos he is laying on the bed sick! Doctors are still trying to work what's wrong...the suspected - childhood Leukemia. NOT FAIR! SO NOT FAIR!

sometimes i wonder if GOD really can see us from above? Does he really record all the sin or bad things we have done and once you have reach certain record you will get Karma? does it work that way? Maybe not....some people still get away with dodgy things! Just like a girl at work that started the same day as i am, she has been promoted 3 times! i quote it as, maybe she suck the right d*ck at work!

I know it's a horrible thing to say, but that's what comes to my mind when i heard the news! it shits me when people for not in the job for real work, but for power, fame and all that shit! so yes, life is NOT FAIR!

It's not fair for little Norman that have to go through this at the age of 2!

My life may not as flamboyant as others, but it's not as bad as others too. Once someone taught me, when you compare youself with someone better than you, don't forget to compare with those that is not as good or as lucky as you. it's important to strike the balance in life, your mindset, your emotion, your thinking!

i'm going to see little Norman tonight! i'll pray for you little Norman!